Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Panic Attack!

Panic was the theme for Tuesday (yesterday).

This is filming week for "Who Does He Think He Is?"  Filming week, like tech week in theatre, is always filled with chaos and tons of last minute preparations and obstacles, many of which you can't plan for.  We start filming Friday and are supposed to (God willing) finish on Sunday.

Added to that normal chaos (and that my regularly scheduled life is still in effect) is the fact that a prop of major importance isn't going to work out.  I've tried (so far) three different ways to get something else together and I'm not there yet.  This is a major project I hadn't planned on having to tackle, especially this week.  And I'm not crafty, so I'm working with a handicap.

Wait for it.  It gets worse.

Late yesterday morning I got a phone call from one of my actors.  He had decided to back out of the film. On Tuesday.  When we film on Friday.  I won't go into detail except to say that there is no blame on either side and I respect his decision.  Our friendship is completely intact now and shall remain that way. 

However, I am still short an actor.  An actor who has the look I need, can pull off the feel I need AND memorize tons of lines in four days.  I can't find anyone who fits that bill.

I'm going to have to do the unthinkable and act in my own film. 

This is NOT my idea of fun, nor do I think it's best for the film as a whole.  However, I can't reschedule my other actors, locations or supplies without tremendous effort.  It would be significantly less hassle to simply take his place myself.

In the infamous words of Sheriff Woody from the movie Toy Story, "This is the perfect time to panic!"

And panic I did.  Yesterday. 

But I asked my friends to pray for me and obviously they did, apparently with no holds barred.  And God answered them with a huge YES and has shown up.  I'm still in the same predicament, but I have peace.

I'm marking this event down on my list of spiritual growth milestones.  A year ago, or even six months ago, had this happened I would have been completely overwrought with fear and anger.  I was very panicked yesterday but by the evening, when it was finally clear that I would have to play the part, I started to feel better.  "The Peace That Passes Understanding" stepped in to "guard my heart and mind in Christ Jesus." (Philippians 4:7)

Hmmm.  Guarding my heart.  If you read my other blog, you know that guarding my heart is a major theme in my life overall, not just for Talk Your Legg Off.

So we're continuing that theme, eh God?  I'll take that over panic any day.

But, if you don't mind, continue to pray for us all.  And thank you.   :)

1 comment:

Dave said...

Your honesty and candor is refreshing, as always, Deb!!

It's amazing to me, my own "linear'esque" nature in compare to God's "total quantum" nature :)

We see things and experience things sequentially, some lending themselves to our "favour" and others causing me to hit the "panic button" :)

NOTHING is unforseen to Him!

EVERYTHING is accounted for.

But still, I continue to do the panic dance when something unforseen arises! Why do I do this?

No clue, but like you, I'm learning to accept the variables involved in remarkably complex systems!


I'm so proud of you Deb! You are my super soulja!